Driving in traffic sometimes makes me panic and very stressed. Yesterday while driving I had several situations that kicked my anxiety into high gear. My hands were clinching the wheel and I began to notice how tense I was feeling. I begin feeling like all these other drivers have more rights than me. A guy in a pickup was behind me on the on-ramp, there was steady traffic preventing me from pulling out, the guy honked at me, at that point I realized that the on-ramp had its own lane and that I could have pulled out. I became upset because I wanted him to know that I wasn't aware of it at first. I soon realized how silly it was to get that upset about that.
Before my trip was over I began analyzing why I have such trouble with this. I realized that everyone out there driving is just trying to get somewhere the same as me. I tend to take things too personally and get frustrated that I'm unable to get out and explain to them why I didn't merge into traffic when I could have. These people I don't even know and it shouldn't matter one bit but somehow it does at the time.
Sometimes I think about the many times I've called other drivers idiots and a few other things and then think they might be the nicest person I've ever met if given the chance. I guess it's just human nature.
These are just things I thought about yesterday while driving.
I intend to continue practicing letting go of these anxious thoughts that lead to this kind of stress while driving. I felt I was able to let go somewhat yesterday after I began recognizing my behavior and becoming more aware of my thoughts.